argh... sians...
dunno wad to do,i'm tired but i dun feel like sleeping.piggy dear says that he went to move things help his friends doing some bicycle jam.dun really know wads that too.scared he will injured himself. and still very freaked out by a super bad dream that i had last nite abt dear gonna leave me dunno go whr or wad. sigh~
if really uu take money,gucci LV prada and labels let me choose over dear now,i would confirm guarante plus chop choose him over all those materials and labels.nth is worth more than his love towards me.

today went to XG find dear,my off day but he nv off. i at home cooked for him pasta wit prawn mushroom and sea asparagas one.bring down for him.actually wanted to do with some soup also de,but nt enuff time. mayb cook as a make up to him and also i already very long ago everytime say cook cook cook also nv cook.hmmmm~

feel like installing the PPS thingy into my laptop and watch.but dunno will work anot.somemore chinese software alot rubbish adn virus inside de.scare spoil my comp...

so sians,dun feel like sleepin yet.or i shld say i dun bear to slp.i wan wait for dear to finish his stuff,make sure he's safe and sound.

sigh~jus received dear's msg and he says that he cant rmb things he did for me last year.

But i still rmb every single detail of us.whether be it frm jus me msging him abt some PTS thingy and mayb jokingly say i wan flirt or fling with him.And him taking me for another XMM to fool ard with.until one day we realised that its nt jus fooling ard but we really love each other,true feelings and love.sometimes he promised to give me smth better give me a right status etc. but shit always happen i really feel like give up at times.

seeing how good he treat his gf,pple and friends ard say he treat his gf very well and stuff. makes me sadder and more demoralised.wondering whr do i stand in his life,who am i to him? if i really be with him will i get the same treatment? wad if i dun get the same treatment how sad will i get? too many questions yet too littke answers .

Really feel like fuck at times and give up on it,but somehow there's this unknown force that tells me nt to give up no matter wad. perhaps this is call LOVE?

before we were officially together.
one year ago.we were like underground-ed,cannot see light,cos we were both attached to our then bf & gfs.alot of shits and alot of tears were shed,blood shed? mayb almost. and there was an occassion that the whole thing came to light.
his then gf made a big fuss and alot of sadness.piggy said he dun wan both of us,he want me to hate him and stuff.said losta heartbreaking words and msgs to me.
and there were other pple&friends ard us.some say good words,some at the back kup lan jiao wae some sot ard watch free show.
gradually,this war was settled.
after some days,de big fat fucker(my then bf)foud out,confronted us and wanted to one-on-one with piggy.zzz lame shit rite and i was like half seh frm all those martell and chivas at that point of time. but nevertheless piggy and friends ard us helped us again...
it was den all came to light.finally we can hold hands together and 光明正大walk ard and go out.
i still keep all his msges he sent to me.the good ones and the sad heartbreaking ones too.never a relationship is all laughts and joys but no tears and arguements.
一路上走过来真的不容易
only in this way we will learn to 珍惜each other and treasure wad we have,nt only when one day its really gone den go cry over the spilt milk.
our very first pictures that we took together...
piggy love 29/11/07