sians..tml vesak day.dunno my crazy plan wil work not.
highest level of sian-zation building up within mie.dunno wads wrong with my life also.kinda sick but loving it at teh same time?i'm bitting my own words.forget it,i'm nt being in my right mind also.
why cant i jus be the one uu love?
sometimes,i get the feeling that i'm jus some sort of replacement or wad liddat.
cant uu understand that my love for uu??
love,yy does it always must be this 4letter word that causes so much pple so much dilema?
anywaes...Happy Birthday to euu...
i really dunno wad else to say le,no its nt specially for euu de.jus concidence oni.
life stil goes on.,i dunno what will happen to mie tml at work.i dunno wad tings to say also.
but stil,wad i feel and my thoughts wil never change,i'm nt someone who gets his/her grounds shaken so easily.so if u're trying to knock some sense into me,i guess uu might have to knock very hard,perhaps try it with some hammer or driller bah~
off ystd n today
suppose to do some constructive things,but nvm
its over anyway~
i've resigned.
25th June 2007
last day in bugis village
a place whr i have so much good and bad memories
sweet good memeories of me working with many fun pple,gossipping n all those beo-ing.playing funny stuff n talk rubbish,slacking,eating snake during work...n of cos my blur-ness,all those funny thing i did...
sad things,all tho0se abt some particular one bah~i had too many wishes bah...
wil they become true?
perhaps oni time wil tell..
today went bedok do my hair,cut n rebond the front fringe part.so now it seems more flat.nt like a lion's hair liao..lols
tml stil have to go back work.sigh~dunno tis month gt hit target not.i tink nv hit lo.vv broke le lo...bank oni left <100 liao...sigh~
no work no money='(
madness la~
i wanna download some games to play,budden,dunno yy download one audition need 10hrs,gunbound need 6hrs,maple need 4hrs..siao liao la~liddat i forever no nid play le lor...
laptop really like nt as good as desktop..
sigh~i only can get new comp(desktop)after i shift house.n the ironic part is tat i dun wanna shift at all.i like my current hse...
sigh..sigh..sigh
nowadays i feel like the distance btw mie n him getting further n further liao...sometimes i dunno yy i wanna carry on liddat also...pple ask mie i also dunno..i ask myself i also dunno.perhaps its jus some sort of emptiness bah~
i dunno how long i can carry on this mindless game with him.it seems like there's some sort of consipracy that i cant seem to work out...
its tiring mie out...
moral of the story: dun be too trusting,NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE EASILYif uu wan to make something across to someone,i dun see the point in going one whole big round.for eg,uu wanna go orchard road,do u tell the taxi uncle to go all de way frm changi to woodlands,then detour,go telok blangah then by CTE uu go orchard road?no rite...(unlesss uu are super duper rich,jiat bah liao,sibeh wu eng,nth to do,then go ahead pls.i hope uu car buang n die on a horrible death.)ok,back to the story,tody jessy afternoon come back shop bring stock,then not happy my frens were sitting inside the shop n blocking the shirts n stuff.ok,that one my fault,she scold me,give mie warning i 心甘情愿 (xin gan xing yuan)cos its my fault. i dun blame anyone except myself...then after that,close shop liao,she come in tell mie in a very wad tone, 'fran ah,someone told me smth today,i dunno whether its true or not.the person told mie ah,u like to tape up the shop n go up 'SPECIALLY' talk to someone working upstairs.somemore,spend a long long time upstairs.the person somemore tell mie,he can go toilet SHIT,SHIT finish come out,i stil over there talking to the someone there.' then she added,'i dunno whether true or nt,uu no need explain or wad la.if uu have i hope that uu can change ,cos i employ uu to work there,tend the shop n sell things.so dun watse time bla bla bla.' the most insulting part was that the mystery person who posted the complaint abt mie,has no moral values n ethics.if he jus wan mie not to disturb his workers during work,come to mie n tell mie straight.or jus complain to jessy str8.nid to say so much things abt mie?
make all those funny comments to insult mie? whoever it is,i dun tink that fucker ever reads this.but if u are the one.let me tell mie,i now wan to one-on-one to uu.uu come challenge mie directly la~uu got the guts come find me personally.uu bu shuang me wad,must go round the whole world n spread ur bad breath everywhere,polluting the environment.n since uu told my boss that uu shit finish liao,come out i stil there,uu show mie the evidence la...i make it a point that if i had to leave the shop to do smth (nt take stock) i wil come back in ASAP.if buy food,the furthest i go is the market behind,most of the time,i 10mins back liao.but if i go toilet wash the cleanin stuff.sometimes,i can take longer then 15mins liddat.i have to wash the clothe a few times can.if there's a queue wil take longer time...anyway,u fucking bastard also no need know so much lor..loser.got the guts come look for me personally la!!!why hide behind and talk?fucking loser,only know how to SHIT big time.i sincerely hope that ur entire family die...knnccb,uu know who uu are la~ no nid mie to spell out ur name.asshole~another thing that irks me is this some aunty figure at my work place.ok la,she nv come irriate me,not that i know of,but i tink she jus step on my tail today.another of those super gossipy lao cheebye.got money must show the whole world ah.last time my fren already gt warn mie abt her before,i stil dun believe,now i really believe liao.she really very fucked up de lo.like to show off so much,carefulo nxt time go out kena rob...i doubt anyone wld like to rape u,lao cheebye...only capable to talk lan jiao wei..sometimes,at work,really can be really miserable.cos of some losers who jus wanna spoil ur day.sometimes,life is jus nt very fair.in my case,i have a higher target compared to 'my other side'.i'm expected to perform better,have higer sales target.when i jus standing on a one-man-lone island.that side,she can have pple,neighbours help.i ask who help.she can go here go there,she can ask her neighbour or fren go with her,no one wil complain her,instead they wil cover for her n stuff...this is the unfair part...she everything also win liao.for my side,i go toilet,or buy meals,i hav to ask her permission,then all those fucking shit...this is the unfair part.however,to take all these 'unfairness' in a good way.it jus proves one thing,i'm better then her...i no need anyone's help...i can cope it all well...why shld i get pple to help mie???i'm simply better...
happy belated birthday to wei lynn~
lolx
today monday so sian at work...lucky open shop tt time gt quite ok de business...sigh~dunno i work til when also.today lido palace having recruitment lo,how i wish i can go n join them.can earn more n get to experience different style...
hmmm,nvm,i also quite ok with my current job.
lots of things dunno how to xplain also..recdently like abit down on luck,hope tml morning i cant wake up early go guan yin tang bai bai...hope can get rid of my bad luck...
people who know me well enough shld know wad happen to mie last fri liao~
fuck those losers la *&##@*!^@$^#%!*^*&^~!#@!^()*(
*%%$#@#$*$$#@
mich: so sorry i dint link uu yet.cos i deleted the entire blog templete for my old blog.thus i lost all my 'most updated links' ... i jus updated my links slightly...paiseh
but anyway,this might not be my final blog bah,cos not really satisfied with everything.the tagboard is damn crappy.i cant see my own typing.bla bla bla and lotsa other craps la~
thus,i decided to stay up late n do a good skin search..lookin for one that i realy like =)
wish mie luck..
geckko:i stil at that pasar malam.but might nt be working so often le...gotta prepare for other stuff also..when wanna come out?
ok,not everything is up yet..new skin only..but perhaps this is oni a temp change oni.i've seen at least 100 odds of skins,yet i cant managt to find one tt i like...
for the time being i'll settle for this first,mayb i'll tweak it a little till i happy bah~
today sort of MC cum off day for me.tis morning i dint manage to slp until late late due to my boss larr~called mie at12liddat ask me can i go for work or nt.i really no strength to speak too much lo.dead tired and having a bad throat too...then i jus told him i cnat,i got dinner with my beloved parents at nite le,somemore i really nt feeling well.if i'm okay,i dun mind gg down till 6pm,like wad he told me...
anyway,i must be mad lah,despite having a sore throat and a slight fever,i still insisted that we shld go eat the mala hotpot...tml i sure dead liao...
lols..
i tink mayb i shld c'td to go hunt for my blogskin le bah~
i miss him <3
new skin coming soon...
i decided to re-vamp tis old dusty blog of mine le...
dun even know if there are still pple reading or not,haven blog of donkey years le...
anyway,i jus decided that i'll go ahead with my plan..hehex..
simply too much things happening ard mie liao.
life is jus a daily routine of work eat sleep.i wish that i could have spend my time on some other stuff.i've send in my application for SIM,hope it all goes well.if its successful,mayb i'll be quitting soon ?
see how it goes,i miss the people i see everyday n all those stuff..and most importantly one memory frm there which i dun think i'll ever get to experience it again in my life...
mayb thats teh chinese saying for the importance of having experincing it once and not the importance of having it eternaly...
perhaps some things in life is liddat de,not yours means not yours,if its yours no matter how uu run away will still come to you de...
take it as it comes bah~
