random posts.
1.ystd went for a BBQ at ECP.
2.Dun think i'm g back DBL C le.finding a new waitress job.any intros pls tell me :)
3.我真的非常愛你，但是我还没有学會如何好好的去愛你,珍惜你。。。sorries对不起...i'm learning...
4.exams coming soon in one months time.i'm so dead... :(
tml's presentation... so much tings nt completed...i haven even ironed my shirt n shirt...went far east after today,spend so much lor.sigh~dun like dun like...must try to find more job so can earn more...after so much emo tings i said for the past few days n pple tot i was gg to die. i tink i shld clarify that i'm really alrite le! serious,jus a small part of life,if i liddat also kan-bu-kai.in future how can?jus take all as a experince to make uu stronger in the future.
talking about kan-bu-kai literally meaning (see no open),there's nth in life that is worth kna-bu-kai-ing about.dun take it in a hard way,life would be easier...
ya,only easier said.. i'm still learning..
letting go is hard its truth , but moving on is even harder , n to make things worst when u r trying to get across river wif tt someone over there not giving a helping hand but pushing u away , its juz like u've gotta trap in a heavy downpour
tt will wash away the very last glow of light for hope of a better tml ..... which feels worst denanything u can thnk of ... coz u still dunnowheather u treat tt someone anot n its hurting tt someone deeply . sorry for being a busybody .sorries...
afterall,i might not have the courage to say so much things...
perhaps mayb i'm off from work,i might tell euu... friday or sat...
read a friend's blog ealier on and i realised that she's quite right...when we were ids,things were much easier...
over some issues,i think that perhaps my kor was correct all the while,i neglected people who really care about me and i was just interested into getting into bigger shit.i asked too much questions and just sometimes i would really screw the entire situation up.1 yr ago,i neglected him,when i was given a 2nd chance i did not see it.or shld i say i dun even deserve it.i was jus interested in things that are not very realistic.to put it in a good way,is being firm in ur decision.to say it in a ugly way,is being stubborn,far too much...
爱我的资格
把手放了
我也许会比较快乐
我也许会换个情人
我也许不会再撑
真的够了
能不能让雨别再下了
能不能让心别再疼了
能不能不要开灯
我们的爱跟着
你写的剧本
出现了越来越多的角色
我是你什么人
如果不是情人
是不是不要
再浪费我的人生
你比我更清楚
你对我多好
多温柔多认真
不构成爱我的资格
除非你只看着我
想着我只有我
爱本来就该独一无二
为你伤心多一点少一点
流下的眼泪都一样不值得
世界上那么多人
只有我一个人
能拯救自己的快乐
不要再为你哭了
i dunno what is going on..i wanna know,but theres a saying,ignorance can be a blessing.ok,perhaps some things are left better unsaid.
i'm feeling so sick and tired if everything...
slept for an hour or so just now,actually was to help a fren work,but called off vv last min.kinda good also,cos i' really dun think i'm free also.will today be a early nite for me???
why is it you???!!
out of so many pple,why must you be the one?
i think of lots and perhaps too much...had dinner with bear n his fren david...interesting people i say.anyway, lifes like tat...
first time i got home from work,i puke like 3 times??? i dunno why i had so much to throw up also. its not a nice feeling...n worst of all..my body had been aching since yystd i came home.dunno what i did also.at first only alittle bit.then when i wake up in de morning,my whole back was like ouch lor.as if i just completed the entire NAFA test we had in sch last time...painful muscles and bones jus dun go well with a half seh mind...
hope that i can slp away all those pain~
be it physical or psychologically...
supposed to do my projects but end up doing something else,met up with ksp...lols somehow ksp have a way of making me smile and shoo away the dark clouds in my heart.actually was in a terrible mood this whole day.started the day rather nice with a sweet msg frm someone...however,after that was some things that made me rather flustered and pek chek...somethings have gone so wrong till to the point whr everyone,inlcuding half of myself,is telling me,it would never NEVER work...and i guess things would never be the same anymore.
baby想对你說声对不起。。。i know that it'll nv be the same,for both of us.
i dun tink that you would even be reading this.if one day you happen to be bothered to read on this post.(would you ever?)you shld know that all would not have happened if you werent lazy and ask me things.thou i dun think that all was ur fault,but still,if you bothered finding out more abt me,ask me abt things.it'll nv happen...a question or two really makes a difference.
anyway,things would never be the same again...dunt ever say 'if i could turn back the time',cos you're not able to do that.when i'm typing this,listening to 相见恨晚.tears just flow down my face...perhaps this would be the last time such things would happen?i dont know either...
相见恨晚
你有一张好陌生的脸
到今天才看见
有点心酸在我们之间
如此短暂的情缘
看著天空不让泪流下
不说一句埋怨
只是心中的感概万千
当作前世来生相欠
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
我不奢求永远
永远太遥远
却陷在爱的深渊
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
在爱与不爱间
来回千万遍
哪怕已伤痕累累我也不管
(music)
你有一张好陌生的脸
到今天才看见
有点心酸在我们之间
如此短暂的情缘
看著天空不让泪流下
不说一句埋怨
只是心中的感概万千
当作前世来生相欠
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
我不奢求永远
永远太遥远
却陷在爱的深渊
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
在爱与不爱间
来回千万遍
哪怕已伤痕累累我也不管
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
我不奢求永远
永远太遥远
却陷在爱的深渊
你说是我们相见恨晚
我说为爱你不够勇敢
在爱与不爱间
来回千万遍
哪怕已伤痕累累我也不管
if i could make such a decision at the beginning of the year and again at the middle of the year.i think you would have known how much you meant to me.the decision wasnt made in a heat of the momment.its not a rash decision.why i can hold out all the while,despite so much things.even if one day i were to tell you all out,will you still understand?
you said i dunt love you anymore.i can honestly say,YES.i'm really dissapointed.initially,i thought that there was someone nice to care and love me,however as times pass....its just a great and greater dissapointment.i dunno why things become like this.perhaps you took things for granted and ???
我以为你是真的爱过
所以我才认真把握
不知不觉陷入爱的旋涡
抓不住解救的绳索
我为你付出了太多太多
从没问过爱的结果
可是你一次一次的出卖我
一次一次让我难过
不要用我的爱来伤害我
你知道我是多脆弱
我做错了什么
你要惩罚我
如果这样你还说爱我
不要用我的爱来伤害我
你的绝情无法闪躲
如果你要解脱
撕毁的承诺
请把我从前对你的爱还给我
i'm really on the verge of giving uo,or shall i say i've already given up?
i loved you before,but did i let you down? its a question for you to think...
to __________:really glad you were with me all these while (:
actually i wondering if what i'm doing now is correct.
feeling very vex!!!
feelings are the hardest thing that words can describe.
i'm really glad on some thing.However sometimes,its like the greater de hopes uu hold for something,the greater wil be the dissapointment...if it cant hold out till the very end will it be better if it didnt start at all...if it has already started,why not end it before it snowballs into a bigger mess???
why issit that we already know we're on the wrong path,yet continue it down?
Let go? jus simply cant bear to...
alamak~~
dunno shld i go to sch or not...gg 12 liao,mayb i try wait till 1pm see how.today even thou i stay at home also nth do,audition cant play cos server check.sians~
if but today accounting,1pm i also scared late..sigh~
very fast,i week of sem2 already past.n dunno why things keep on poppin up during school.n i have to say that afternoon session is nt nice at all!!! i prefer morning session lo.can do more things.nvm,sem 2 have much more group project as compared to sem1,all 3 subs have grp project.sians,smth that i'm least interested,but nevertheless stil have to find a way la.having business communication lessons today,wil hav to sort out the groupings,after cfming all,will start on de projects le.Better to start early n end early.
past 2days haven been playing audi cos working.ystd after work go RAV club with some bunch of people.RAV is fun de lor..dint know sia.music was RnB,trance,house liddat.oni went there frm 5am+ till like 730.yup morning 730,cos they open till 9am.but i stil felt rather weird lo,people like to dance in de morning???lols. anyway,took train.cos no cabs ard.
hahaaa..first day of work,dunno tml wil kena fry cuttlefish or not...but nevertheless,still learn some stuff la.initailly was having so much jittlers abt the job,scared i cant do this n that,but anyway,its a good experience.
i think i'm so in love with someone.hmmm,have you ever got the exp of de moment uu see the person,u'll immed get a better mood?or nt even jus seeing him or hear his voice,you'll get a better mood? i tink people must be thinking i'm mad la~lalaa~~
haha,i'm in a rather good mood :)
sian la... cant slp...my blogger stil havin some probs n i cant post pics lo..i wanna post i wanna post!!!sians. jus now vv tired,go slp tot wil sleep nice nice,but some stoopid mosquito come bite me until my whole body full of love bites frm them =.= today attended first lect of sem2,fancy starting sem2 on children's day. why no children's day hol for mie? anyway,school is so boring,i dun like lo(since when did i liked school b4?) super no mood.collected notes,so bloody heavy.thou the lect notes seems like they are lesser in quantity as compared to last sems sbujects,but i heard they wil be more difficult.esp gt statistic n accounting...dead lo.haven even really started already feeling the pressure liao.
somemore,the lecturer for business comm is like wtf la~i dun like her :(
difficult subs,laoya lectuerer,no time,high stress lvl...how bad can tings get?
after classes went for my part time job hunt.unknowingly,time flies and i arrived at central.really hungry,so went to ta-bao dinner home and eat,nth to eat so i decided try the chinese stall at B1.the stall call Da-Pai-Dang.i eat eat one time,i know i wunt prob be eating there again liao.super terrible,the chicken rice the rice like spoil de.eat liao dunno like kena lao sai or wad lor.if gt i cfm wil go complain till they close shop de.muahahaaaa... (i'm crazy)
sians..3am liao n i cant sleep.alot mosquitoes kissing mie ah!!!
argh!!!
