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Sunday, September 30, 2007 - 4:36 AM

have no heart de bf liddat de...
who can i blame??no one rite?
its glad to know that many people uu know in ur life is living happily ever after with their another half.but i does not work for everyone in this case.that day went to michelle's b'dae celebration.seeing people that i used to hangout with,chiong-ing with in the past all those fun times,all being happily ever after with their other half.a fren ask me how me n my bf, i jus said what i really feel.she told me mayb the time haven come,and the old saying 'time will tell' comes out.yes, Time Will Tell,but will the result be what i've being looking forward to?Actually i doubt so.i dunno why i have such little faith,but its just all the logical thinking and facts of life telling mie that its all a dream and fantasy if mine.in this harsh and cruel real world,it might not turn out the way that i wish for.
the 苦尽甘来theory may nt really work in the situation.

just now played audi at lan shop and play half way,dunno wich person hearing 谢谢你的愛by andy lau...damn no mood suddenly. nowdays getting very easily affected by things.dunno why also, but nevertheless still putting up a strong front.asking myself why am i doing this to myself? i also dunno de answer.on de way home jus now,a fren called asking mie how am i. perhaps she knew wad happened during the game bah~ suddenly jus stop playing when the song is being played.

谢谢你的爱

歌手：刘德华

不要问我一生曾经爱过多少人
你不懂我伤有多深
要剥开伤口总是很残忍
劝你别作痴心人多情暂且保留几分

不喜欢孤独却又害怕两个人相处
这分明是一种痛苦
在人多时候最沉默笑容也寂寞
在万丈红尘中啊找个人爱我
当我避开你的柔情后泪开始坠落

是不敢不想不应该再谢谢你的爱
我不得不存在啊像一颗尘埃
还是会带给你伤害

是不敢不想不应该再谢谢你的爱
我不得不存在啊在你的未来
最怕这样就是带给你永远的伤害

thanks for the love??
yes,i'm grateful for all those,i've learnt much.and i'm even more afraid after learning so much.mayb they say ignorance can be a blessing in disguise.傻人有傻福

tons of things were running past my mind for the past hours.that day i met up with yvonne,and chat abt some things on another sis de r/s problem.thou i can offer some genuine solution on other people problem,but like wad she say.i might be able to help others,but what abt myself???
i ask her that day,if a person can share a guy with another girl,knowing that the guy already has a gf,how wld uu tink of that girl? she said that the girl must be nuts and she does nt love the guy deep enuough or not even at all.i pondered over this...i still dunno why.regrets??

til this date.almost close to 1 yr,i'm stil stuck in a dilema. all bcos of a se-bu-de.i jus wan everything ....the end result is that i might end up with nth...

my feelin that i get frm dar is that we're moving further away.its so far that somtimes i'm wondering if i'm jus a gf for him to ???dunno also.he can go ard telling people we're 'happily together' ya,oni him, he dun ask abt my opinion,he tells people we're happily 1 yr.but had he asked me b4 how i really feel?only he himself know.