have no heart de bf liddat de...
who can i blame??no one rite?
its glad to know that many people uu know in ur life is living happily ever after with their another half.but i does not work for everyone in this case.that day went to michelle's b'dae celebration.seeing people that i used to hangout with,chiong-ing with in the past all those fun times,all being happily ever after with their other half.a fren ask me how me n my bf, i jus said what i really feel.she told me mayb the time haven come,and the old saying 'time will tell' comes out.yes, Time Will Tell,but will the result be what i've being looking forward to?Actually i doubt so.i dunno why i have such little faith,but its just all the logical thinking and facts of life telling mie that its all a dream and fantasy if mine.in this harsh and cruel real world,it might not turn out the way that i wish for.
the 苦尽甘来theory may nt really work in the situation.
just now played audi at lan shop and play half way,dunno wich person hearing 谢谢你的愛by andy lau...damn no mood suddenly. nowdays getting very easily affected by things.dunno why also, but nevertheless still putting up a strong front.asking myself why am i doing this to myself? i also dunno de answer.on de way home jus now,a fren called asking mie how am i. perhaps she knew wad happened during the game bah~ suddenly jus stop playing when the song is being played.
谢谢你的爱
歌手：刘德华
不要问我一生曾经爱过多少人
你不懂我伤有多深
要剥开伤口总是很残忍
劝你别作痴心人多情暂且保留几分
不喜欢孤独却又害怕两个人相处
这分明是一种痛苦
在人多时候最沉默笑容也寂寞
在万丈红尘中啊找个人爱我
当我避开你的柔情后泪开始坠落
是不敢不想不应该再谢谢你的爱
我不得不存在啊像一颗尘埃
还是会带给你伤害
是不敢不想不应该再谢谢你的爱
我不得不存在啊在你的未来
最怕这样就是带给你永远的伤害
thanks for the love??
yes,i'm grateful for all those,i've learnt much.and i'm even more afraid after learning so much.mayb they say ignorance can be a blessing in disguise.傻人有傻福
tons of things were running past my mind for the past hours.that day i met up with yvonne,and chat abt some things on another sis de r/s problem.thou i can offer some genuine solution on other people problem,but like wad she say.i might be able to help others,but what abt myself???
i ask her that day,if a person can share a guy with another girl,knowing that the guy already has a gf,how wld uu tink of that girl? she said that the girl must be nuts and she does nt love the guy deep enuough or not even at all.i pondered over this...i still dunno why.regrets??
til this date.almost close to 1 yr,i'm stil stuck in a dilema. all bcos of a se-bu-de.i jus wan everything ....the end result is that i might end up with nth...
my feelin that i get frm dar is that we're moving further away.its so far that somtimes i'm wondering if i'm jus a gf for him to ???dunno also.he can go ard telling people we're 'happily together' ya,oni him, he dun ask abt my opinion,he tells people we're happily 1 yr.but had he asked me b4 how i really feel?only he himself know.
dunno why my blogger become chinese also. but nvm la, still cant type english then can liao lo..
anyway, tis morning, early early 6am some idiot msg n di siao siao lo.. win le la.. i nid people to wake mie up, not the other way round!!! idiot,call me wake some kpkb de person up at 10am,arbo try waking me up first then say la...lols.but end up i still woke up at 12noon again. super bad habit..
sian.ystd go town with sock wee they all. then after that was sianzation for mie, cos frm there, i took the freaking long bus no.2 home.fell asleep n slept all de way home. and dunno why suddenly i become so emo,reach home, bathe, stay in room, sit one corner,use com,people call me. tts all i did.nv eat,nv go out of the room at all. then played audi for awhile.then tried sleeping...fell sleep eventually...
then some idiot must come wake me up.zzz
today just got to know that someone read every of my post... even i do not read everypost after posting... gt la, read once lo... but he say some of the post he read x2!!!
so after knowing, i come home and read every single post... OMGX...
how come liddat!!!
lols...
but anyway, its a nice effort la~
this few weeks having hols, dint do too much too,just everyday sleep, eat watch tv,play games. monday go out town with geck n shuning...
then ystd miit some1 that ________________. haha...de person if he gt read, he'll know de la...lols...
quite good mood, haven been in such a good mood for a long tiMe le. dunno how long wil it last.
schools starting soon le.. hmmm, time to work hard again lers.
i MUST MUST MUST study hard.
today went shopping, burnt a big big whole lo..
bought cardigans, shirts and i still wanna buy more :(
i wanna buy cute dresses,but i scare buy liao also dunno when wil wear....
sigh~
msg mr cat,until now also haven reply mie :(
i think of euu... i think of euu...
i pass my exam leh.. so shocked uptill i keep on screamin in de lan shop. luckily lan shop noisy enuff to mask my laughters..lols.. drama queen me..
pass is pass la,but nt good leh,borderline oni nias... :(
nxt term shld try harder bah~ i tink it gets harder along de way...
tell mie wad to do...
xiang jian hen wan..
i'm lost...it is a point of no return..
