sians...
almost practically is asking me the same qns...'are you going to work forever in bugis village?'
my answer is that i'll work till i'm really sick and tired of it,which i'm already starting to feel de strain..seriously,i miss sch...A301 =)
gathering on fri..yea!!!
ok,the serious issue is that i'll try to see if i can my ass in SIM...which i dun really have much hope...if cant then it'll poly october intake lo...there is such an intake right?
hmmm.thats all i can say...yes,i'm hoping to get of the 'pasar malam' very soon liao~
its jus a matter of time..
lookiin forward to a new life =)
damn shag lo...
feel like quitting liao lo,dunno for wad also.go back school study??? or find another job?
really feeling damn luan nowadays...jus now end work liao then go hougang there find ah qing n yvonne tcss... damn sian.then after that it starting pouring down like mad...
lucky ah qing lend us umbrella,me n yvonne damn kuku lo..walk in de heavy rain trying to flag a cab..lols..damn farnie...
life is damn boring lo..in de day damn fucked up,no sales....
everydae is jus wake up,go work,end work,go home,sleep...damn sians..
lookin for some sort of new routine...looking for my him also..kekex..
dunno when will he give me his 100%...dun wanna all along be jus a accessory...
waiting for moii 100% to come..its jus simply i wanna be with him,cos i jus love him..
simple 4letter word for him only L-O-V-E
<3 love only <3
i told myself not to tink abt uu anymore...
not to miss u anymore..
not to sms uu anymore..
not to love euu anymore..
but i really fail to perform any one of these things...
asking me to forget uu totally is really worse then death...
how can i erase uu totally from my memory?
its all a one sided thing afterall...
but somehow,no matter how uu treated me,i stil feel that there might be some hope between us?
i really wish that i could stop loving euu...but i really cant bring myself to do that...
really hope that fate will allow us to be together ...
will that dae ever come?
sianx ah
life so boring..
ystd went rush @ripples again...sian can...go awhile,my another fren jio me go this ktv pub there called 'fang ting' ya,chinese de...all sorts people inside...then after that go there inside,drink drink drink then go back ripples there find dar dar liao...
today this morning cant wake up lo..
tink i must learn to depend on myself oni...
sigh~ shall not elaborate further...
when can i be your one and only in your life??
thoughts keep on running thru my mind...
learn to let go??i cant,i really cant,cos i jus wanna be with you...i jus simply miss euu..
learning to forget bout you is the hardeset fact for mie to accept...
simply love euu <3
if tts the way you wan things to be.then alrite,i'll let uu have your way...
if my departure is the best solution to your problem,then alrite,i'll leave...
seems that some things in life cant alwaes be explained in the common way..people alwaes tell me that parents alwaes care for uu de most...they alwaes stay by your side no matter wad becomes of you...ya..they alwaes stay by your side,n if u fail your exams or do smth that does nt please them....they'll stay by your side n nag nonstop at you...scold you,chide you,say all those nasty things abt uu...mayb this situation oni applies to a minority...the unfortunate thing,i happen to be the minority =.=
i tink sooner or later,i will be driven to my grave by them...
its jus a matter of time...
i miss euu so much..
day by day,my love for euu grew stronger and stronger...
i start to feel lost without you by my side...
like a lost sheep admist the crowds of people...
you left deep footprints deep inside my heart..
will euu give me ur 100%?
will fate allow us to be together?
my wish and hope for you to be by side..loving euu till de end of time..
will they come true?
i will wait for euu...
i really regret saying those things ystd...somehow i feel that there seem to be smth wrong with us today...mayb its because the presence of her?
i really cant take that feeling le...it sucks to feel like this,really...
he said that i cld nt let go of the past,so wad abt him?if he could,wld he stil be in such a complicated stage now???
i'm reaqlly willing to let go if he's ready to give me his fullest...
the feeling really hurts me alot alot...i thought of dying ever since some tings happen,but its jus this particular person that has been keeping me going on...
this is hurting me so much,tts all i can say..
why cant fate allow us to be jus together,i jus wanna be with you...yes,i can let go of the past.in fact,you know that i've long given up le rite???
finally i'm able to blog in again..after rounds and rounds of searching for my lost password n acct name...
anyway,i got back my results le..pple who arfe close to me all know liao la..my future?? do i stil have one?i tot i have given it up on someone whom i
USED TO love with all my heart and soul.at that point of time,it seems that my world only revolves ard him...hmmm,but til now,i tink back,stoopid rite..but anyway,its over.i'll try to live on with whatever i'm left with.
after taking de results,memories came flooding back,i feel that there is many pple that i dui bu qi,esp chris n mr hon... they've been giving their support,but i've been the one that's nt been responding...today chris asked me if i've given my 100% at the papers.he felt that there's potential in me..jus that i've nt been ultilising them...
the fact that i wish to say that its nt that i dun not wanna stretch myself to the fullest..its just that frm the beginning,frm the 2yrs in JC.there's nv been a day that i've taste any sweetness of the fruit.mayb i've nv ever started working for it?(yes,pple wil say that i've nt tried,of cos i dun taste any sweetness)
ok,i've tried,for me,its jus the case of ' i can do it,if u teach me so' in my previous entries,ii mentioned abt me disliking a fucking bitchy teacher in sch...yeah,i flunk out on her subject...her words are the worst thing a teacher shld say..telling me in my face that u've givven up hope on me.yes,to you,i'm jus a loser rite.some stoopid kid who refuse to study and only know how to play n do all de bad stuff.n u are the upstairs character...now i flunk out,u happy liao lo...
i tink you've been telling pple that i'm some rotten apple or wad.
bitch,u're the worse teacher i've ever seen...dun let me see uu again... u sux..
i jus hate the feeling that you've this feel like crying feeling,but u jus cant cry out...i'm jus not me today.mayb cos of the results?i dunno,anyway,its jus some part of my life...
suddenly during work i started missing him again..dunno for fuck also... its jus so vexing...
i want him out of my life,for i want a fresh start...
been waiting for him...
praying hard..
i wish..i wish that fate will allow us to be together...i wil continue to wait for him de...
say wil call me,now also nv call...tink he also dun feel like bah~
