We never treasure what we have until we lose it. Or almost lose it. Then we start to panic and scramble for something to hold on to, when that something was already lost. We grasp at last straws, praying and hoping that one day, we will wake up and this is all just a bad dream. But, deep inside, you and I already know, that one precious chance you had, that only straw you had, has already left you.feeling damn fucked up currently.i start to forget the things that i initially promise myself.i hope that the lost diary of mine can be found.i wanna change wad i wrote there.for the time being,i'll write them here b4 i get another diary to pen down my thoughts...
if i were given a choice to choose,i'll nt have made that decision that i made earlier on.regrets???too late...
however,if i were ever to be given another chance...
i dare to say out loud that i'll forgo all those stuff to be with you again...
all my A levels,studies and J***,bla bla bla...i'll willingly sacrify them..dunno how put it to you guys,but its jus more than words...
how wld you feel when u see a good friend of yours going out with your ex not long after the break-up. even thou they jus gt to know each other after the break only... i dunt know how i shld face up to this anymore...feeling damn stressed up rcently..all sorts of rubbish is happening to mie.
sick n tired of all this craps..H2 jus msg mie ystd,telling mie those bla bla bla again.jus wads wrong with u guys?
everyone will always tell mie the same lines when things go wrong...is that the standard break up line?
Is this line suppose to make me feel better? IMO,i think the more i hear it,the worse i feel?wad do you mean that you're nt good enuff for mie, but at the same time,behind my back,you can go tell the whole world how 'good' i am...
after all these while,n what i saw ystd.i dunno whether i shld still persist on smth that i know will nv be mine again.or like wad my fren told me,it was nv mine?
ever since it happened...been feeling damn lost...things seem right at times,things seem wrong at times.i cant tell how much senseless things i have done.i thought of dying...but friends ard mie had help mie gone thru that rough patch...
i thought of giving up and forgetting and all...however,things were nt as smooth as i thought they were... him..he's stuck in my memory.forever??
fr0m the dae i met euu ; i've n0 regret kn0wing euu.c0s euu are the 0ne fer miewheneva i need sum0ne t0 care fer mie ; i w0nt f0rget the veri first dae euu call mie dear * "i.realli.miss.euu.badly"did euu realised tatt i've lo0king fer euu al dae l0ng ; i jus wanna let eu n0e if n0b0dy is there when euu need sum0ne,always remember tis, i'm always there if euu need mie; i will nv leave euuc0s i'm s0 glad t0 n0e like lyke euu ; leaving mem0ries behind ; i feel s0 hurrt ; i feel s0 l0st.i'm simply runnin away fr0m reality.euu left so suddenly,leaving mie tonnes of deep mem0ries.; i'm accidentally in l0vee.-0o [ x ] fr0m the dae euu started ign0ring mie ; i felt s0 left 0ut n l0st in de w0rld. i cant tel euu h0w badly i miss euu, but is just m0re than w0rds.sumtimes, i keep thinkin 0f da past 0f us, myy tears fl0wed d0wn myy eyes...always luv eu...
