feeling damn pissed off+fustrated+hungry+cheated now...blogger was down,n this is teh second time i'm typing it again.the first 3 is to address to one complicated n yet not so complicated thing...n the last one is in address to another particular issue...
i shall blog abt the 1st issue first.its abt mummy n mie's stuff.its jus damn irriating.first she say that she'l bring me for supper after her work end today.she's doing such,hoping that i'lll stat at home n not go out again.cos she does nt like the idea of me gg to chiong n bla bla bla...so i went to consider n think of her feelings.then i ended up guai guai at home.somemore today's is kenny's b'dae celebration at rush, ni really wanted to go n like celebrate for him badly...then on the other hand i gotta like 'look after' that bitch's feelings...so i jus have to 'ren' n guai guai stay at home lor.anyway,i was like damn look forward to the supper thingy.n then she come home,first thing she said to me'eh,u went out n play ah' what's teh fucking problem with her la~i guai guai stay at home,n this is the typr of treatment i get frm u.knnccb.n there ws end up,no supper lor.
but wad pissed me off most was the part that she came home,n bark at me,askin is it i wnet out play n meet those 'frens' of mine...what kind of attitude la~damn fucking pissed off can.
yes,i did went out to bedok,but oni go meet my fren talk cock n slack awhile mah.i came home early can...if i had no earlier that tis is the type of response i wld get frm tat 'upstairs character'i wld have gone out to rush n celebrate my fren's b;dae liao.
then she was like come n ask me, if i wan to eat porkchop or crabs tml...what fucking crap la~pple hungry now leh.NOW!!!!NOW!!!u come tell me tml wad n wad.i firmly said no lor.last time tt 'upstairs character' tell mie nt to go sparks,then i ask her then i go sparks,i go rush,or jus go out sing song,talk cock n slack can?she said no..cannot go anywhere.so thhis time,same also...i jus wanna eat that mee sua n you tiao thingy now.NOW!!!nothing else.nt chicken rice,hor fun or soup...
damn pissed off la~n now ii'm damn it hungry...
second issue...
jus now my fren told me abt some stuff.n i'm like thinking that its actually rather fishy lor...what these two pple do n say are so contradicting to themselves...i dunno this time,who shall i trust,who i shld'nt.when my fren ask me things,i dunno what i shall reveal n what i shall keep mum about.
this particular issue is really hurting me alot...what alvin sae is quite true.i'm feeling lost n fustrated cos after all,i dint let go of the past totally n i still have feelins regarding this particular issue...danyuan also told me that its my main source of distration.i agree.i agree that indeed i dint let go off totally.that's why i'm so vex now,n i feelings so cheated.
i'm like a toy of theirs,in their private game of two.my feelings are being toyed...nt jus once,twice,thrice..but numerous times,till i have lost count already...
hmmm,after all.i'm jus a mere toy in their private game of two.
hurt+cheated beyond cure.when can some1 stop all these n save me from this mess.
when will that some1 be really serious n stop hurting n toying with my feelings?my wounds are simply hurtting me so much that no words can descibe how bad i feel.
when will the brighter day come?where is the special one...
still waiting
