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recently not much time to blog about stuff...ok,i shall jus mention some random bits n pieaces of stuff that i come across in everyday...

its the 2nd time this week le.n i rmb wad my fren said to me on msn,'jus pretend nv see la',or why am i getting so affected over it???my friend was like tell mie that last time,when u yourelf is attach...you might have done such things that had 'irritated' people back then.jus like how irritated i am now.not that i'm feeling irriated or jealous over the fact that people in a relationshp now are 'enjoying' the companionship they get frm their girl/boyfriends...
However,i wld like to emphasis i do not object to such acts of intimacy,smooching each other,fonderling each other like there's no tomorrow,n other acts that couples do,etc etc...but pls choose a correct place and time ok???
Not inside KFC definetly...people go there to eat,n not to enjoy that extra 'show' put up by you n your bf/gf...
or not under the hot afternoon sun at the bench by the road side,please lor...
IMO i'll tink its rather romantic if its at nite.spending some time with your loved ones.BUT BUT BUT...4pm afternoon.the sun sooooooooooooooo damnn frigging hot.higher chance of getting chao ta la...later turn roasted pig.getting roasted is not at all romantic kae...

tml's coloseumm(hope i've spelled it right) day.which is actually another term for sports day lah...yeyey,maxi treating us to lunch!!!!*dance around crazily`learn frrm anting de`wakakakakaaa*i'm nt running la,thou i admit i love to run,but i dun really enjoy running during sports events.cos i too slow liao.oni enjoy running 6or7 rounds ard the field when i'm free bah...

i realised that i really miss that someone really really really alot alot alot...
missing him too much.but i know tt i cant turn back time.all those that had happened in the past,will nv return...n like wad alvin say.its alot on mie to decide on what shld be my priority...n i guess its time i have to make a final decison...MUST NOT,NEVER PLAY WITH FIRE ANYMORE,for one thing that i've to learn that not everytime,ladyluck would be on our side...must be hard hearted,take this opportunity to strengthen my heart n mind n determination bah~~
Last but not least,PLAY WITH FIRE NO MORE!!!



ystd had a class dinner at Joo Chiat there...even Maxi n Chrissy turned up =)
took some pics...

Izzat&mie
Adeline and Nora
Nora & mie..Nora's so hot!!!

what's with Izzat & Nora??? this foto also not i take one,dunno who take de =?


the big big easter egg...half eaten liao...
RuiQi+ mie in a our,ahem....soooo kawaii pose =P
Nora,Zul,Shuning,Adeline,Sin Yee,& Izzat
AO Maths group--Haris,cheng ling cutie,n 3 pretty girls =P
Maurise+mie+anting...
Zul+mie
what's maxi doing???
close up shoot...
fiddeling with the kinder breuno toy...

ade+mie+weining

ade+mie...

kena feed chocolate....by weining
then....
OH NO!!! Adeline jealous angry liao...=X
xiao wu jian da wu..in this case is called small egg see big egg...

Zul+Weining+Xuewen with the easter eggs

Bai+mie

shuning+ruiqi+geck ying

PW grp...we all had ace with with a Band 1!!!

Last but not least...presenting to you guys...


A301 ROX!!!



hmmm.i dunno if i shld take the initaive or not...its jus so fustrating la~i dun wan to make myself like i'm overdemanding or over dominating liddat.but on the other hand,i wanna do it to make him happy...how how how???
so vexing,sometimes...in this whole story.i feel that i'm jus a toy in this whole issue...
she n him,what are they up to.what's their history?i know nuts about it...when she tells me smth about him,i dunno if i can believe mah...there are jus too mnay mysteries that are awaiting to be revealed...
i' only know that i'm feeling damn vexed n fucked up.all because of all these issues.are they jus playing their private game of two,n i'm jus their toy??/
someone pls tell mie...

later gonna eat dinner with my 05A301 darlings =D



ystd went out,go bugis +sim lim sq there.then bought lotsa stuff,spend so much $$,then now become very poor liao.sigh~finally bought the pair of shoes tt i have been eyeing for a long long time.really love it loads.then bought shirt also.then i went to the swatch counter n saw the watch that i've been longing to get,for a long long time.but the design is like vv old liao.come out dunno how many years already.but now stil gt some stocks left.dunno whether i shld get it or nt...
i ask mummy,then she say dun buy,wad watse $$,this n that.since she dun wanna help me get disc frm my relatives there.then nvm lor,i go outside n buy myself.the disc i tink ta most oni $10...if she really dun wanna help la~

then this morning ard 4+, 5am liddat.my fren msg me,then msg here,msg there until 6+ then slp..dots liao..dunno how also,my fren ask me the thing.
feel like consulting my fren,budden dunno where she...sian1/2...i know its a trival thing,but i dunno leh.wad if it turn out like the last time liddat?hmmm,i tink its jus like 1 week ago,yvonne ask me bout her stuff liddat...haix~its like about the similar thing liao lor...
but anyway,uploaded a song tt i like alot...will upload stuff whenever i feel like =D
its jay's ka bu liao ko...

ya lor,i really kai bu liao ko now.so much things to say,n yet i dunno what to say,dunno who i can really tell...
guess this time i'm really liking him alot bah~i was talking to anting about him ystd on msn.tink sometimes,because of him,i really go overboard liao...n chris also tell me tt i shall jus forget about him.hix,i also dunno leh...dunno whether he wil get to read tis or nt...dunno how he feel towards me also,or is it jus my yi-xiang-qing-yuan one sided feeling?at times,i'm so temoted to tell him how i feel towards him,but i scared later things dun turn out nice...mayb tis mayb that...but one thing for sure...is i definelty like him alot alot =)
<3 i still miss him alot <3



ystd went out evetually to meet someone ...dunno how to describe how i feel.wondering that if he ever comes n read my blog?
been pondering over how this whole thing will end,is it really that nice?i think my fren called me ystd when i was asleep,n kena one miss call.dunno who is it also.

back to the someone i met ystd,shall i say he's cute?or wad?
i myself also dunno why i keep on do all these things.
at the bus interchange n stuff.i dunno is it farnie or stoopid.
wad am i blogging ah,i also luan liao~

tink one thing i really sure is that i really like this 'someone'
n i really miss him sometimes bah~



The Price Of Virginity
This topic had been on my mind for a very long time. Its a touchy subject for some but i believe that its something most of us will think of. Especially in this current critical society of ours, everything we do is closely scrutinised.
Lately i came across a post on a forum. This guy was asking people about their opinions about their girlfriend or spouse being a non-virgin. He loves this gal and the gal loves him too. The gal initiated sex with him. However after the deed he realised that the gal was not a virgin and he cant bring himself to accept the fact that hes not the first guy she has bedded. A few readers have also asked me on what i think about virginity before.
Before we continue, let us go back to the start of this problem. Back to the ancient ages. This was the period when virginity was prized. The emperors of old china conducted virginity checks on their future concubines or empress by checking for the presence of the hymen. Yes, this little piece of skin would decide if the gal enjoys a life of riches or continues to work the land. Rich men conducted such checks too when they take concubines. Thus you can see that the value of virginity was rooted deep in our minds from way back.
Moving on to the present time, the value of virginity has certainly eroded. The influx of other cultures, most notably of western origins plays a big part. Look at shows and even literature now, most of them have at least expressed some form of sexuality. The reason for expressing such sexuality? Most of the time its to attract a certain guy and the end action is a romp on the bed. A classic example will be the James Bond series of movies. Tell me which movie aint ended with Bond shagging a girl? And this is where the value of virginity has slowly eroded. As the society opens up and becomes a potpourri of values and cultures, certain things become lost. Things which were practical becomes a fantasy now.
Part of the reason why some people holds such an attachment to virginity stems from their ego. For guys, they feel that its better to own new stuff rather than own something which has been used before. For gals, they might feel that its better to preserve their virginity for someone they really love. I have no qualms with people who dont approve of premarital sex and saving their virginity till their consummation night. Yes, premarital sex might be common now but it does not mean you have to do it. You guys have your values and views and i respect that. I know its certainly not easy to keep yourself in check given the intricacies and allures from the current society and environment.
However, what i do not like or respect is the fact that people are using the virginity issue to start a relationship or to love someone. Back to the post from the guy in the forum. He says he loves the girl and the girl loves him so much that the girl initiated sex because she knows thats what he wants. However he cant bring himself to love her anymore cos of the fact that shes not a virgin? Give me a break. Take a walk down Orchard Road now, grab a few teens and ask them if they have been bedded or bedded anyone before. Though most of them wont admit it given our prudish society, i will gladly bet that there's a high percentage of them out there who are no longer virgins. I have a few gal pals that i am quite close with and i am their confidante. Two of them lost their virginity at the young age of 15, a few lost it shortly after their 16th birthday. Though this is not an actual representation of the situation out there, you readers can probably take a good estimation.
There are a few reasons why guys cant accept that their gals are non virgins:
Their upbringing
Their ego
There is no way to solve their upbringing problem. Its the way they have been conditioned to live life. Its either they change their life or they let their upbringing live their life for them. The ego problem is the most common obstacle here.
Ego at work: "I cant accept her, shes a used shoe." Ladies here will agree with me that even though a pair of heels look nice, you wont know how it works out until you wear it. Sometimes, you will get blisters wearing it, sometimes it might hurt you after wearing it for a while and sometimes it just plainly dont fit. You got to try it out before you know if its the right shoe for you. Before i get blasted for this blasphemous idea of trying out every gal read on.

For gals losing their virginity, it doesnt mean the gal is loose or wild or is a slut. There could be many hidden facets you have never seen. There are always two sides to every story. Ask yourself, why will a girl give up her virginity so easily? Reason being is they love that guy. True, that guy could be backstabbing or two timing that girl, however the girl is innocent. She doesnt know. She thought that the guy really loves her and thats why she decides to give up something so precious. And ladies will agree, you wont even let a guy touch your hand or get intimate with you unless you are really sure that he loves you, much less give him sex. Even if its a fling, there is surely a hint of feeling before they go to bed.
And after loosing their virginity to the guy and finding out that hes a two timer, jerk or bastard, what can a girl do? Nothing, whats done is already done. The most a gal can do is cry about it and be really depressed. However time will heal everything. Then along comes a guy who after a long time, the gal feels that she can really trust and really loves her, she decides to give her love and body to him. Think how hurt she will be if the guy cant accept her cos shes not a virgin. Because of one mistake in life, the girl has to suffer it for eternity? Shes already willing to give her love to you and to block out those horrible memories of her past. What more can a guy ask for? Why cant you just give her another chance to be loved and cared for? Is a piece of skin that important to you? Is the feeling of penetrating her the first time that important to you? Besides, its all in the past. Why bother about the past when you are living in the present?



feeling damn pissed off+fustrated+hungry+cheated now...blogger was down,n this is teh second time i'm typing it again.the first 3 is to address to one complicated n yet not so complicated thing...n the last one is in address to another particular issue...
i shall blog abt the 1st issue first.its abt mummy n mie's stuff.its jus damn irriating.first she say that she'l bring me for supper after her work end today.she's doing such,hoping that i'lll stat at home n not go out again.cos she does nt like the idea of me gg to chiong n bla bla bla...so i went to consider n think of her feelings.then i ended up guai guai at home.somemore today's is kenny's b'dae celebration at rush, ni really wanted to go n like celebrate for him badly...then on the other hand i gotta like 'look after' that bitch's feelings...so i jus have to 'ren' n guai guai stay at home lor.anyway,i was like damn look forward to the supper thingy.n then she come home,first thing she said to me'eh,u went out n play ah' what's teh fucking problem with her la~i guai guai stay at home,n this is the typr of treatment i get frm u.knnccb.n there ws end up,no supper lor.
but wad pissed me off most was the part that she came home,n bark at me,askin is it i wnet out play n meet those 'frens' of mine...what kind of attitude la~damn fucking pissed off can.
yes,i did went out to bedok,but oni go meet my fren talk cock n slack awhile mah.i came home early can...if i had no earlier that tis is the type of response i wld get frm tat 'upstairs character'i wld have gone out to rush n celebrate my fren's b;dae liao.
then she was like come n ask me, if i wan to eat porkchop or crabs tml...what fucking crap la~pple hungry now leh.NOW!!!!NOW!!!u come tell me tml wad n wad.i firmly said no lor.last time tt 'upstairs character' tell mie nt to go sparks,then i ask her then i go sparks,i go rush,or jus go out sing song,talk cock n slack can?she said no..cannot go anywhere.so thhis time,same also...i jus wanna eat that mee sua n you tiao thingy now.NOW!!!nothing else.nt chicken rice,hor fun or soup...
damn pissed off la~n now ii'm damn it hungry...

second issue...
jus now my fren told me abt some stuff.n i'm like thinking that its actually rather fishy lor...what these two pple do n say are so contradicting to themselves...i dunno this time,who shall i trust,who i shld'nt.when my fren ask me things,i dunno what i shall reveal n what i shall keep mum about.
this particular issue is really hurting me alot...what alvin sae is quite true.i'm feeling lost n fustrated cos after all,i dint let go of the past totally n i still have feelins regarding this particular issue...danyuan also told me that its my main source of distration.i agree.i agree that indeed i dint let go off totally.that's why i'm so vex now,n i feelings so cheated.
i'm like a toy of theirs,in their private game of two.my feelings are being toyed...nt jus once,twice,thrice..but numerous times,till i have lost count already...
hmmm,after all.i'm jus a mere toy in their private game of two.
hurt+cheated beyond cure.when can some1 stop all these n save me from this mess.
when will that some1 be really serious n stop hurting n toying with my feelings?my wounds are simply hurtting me so much that no words can descibe how bad i feel.
when will the brighter day come?where is the special one...
still waiting



tink dunno y blogskin having some problems ah?the page keep on cant open.-sian-i wanna change my blog skin liao.things see long le will sian one mah~damn sian lor today.i like got no program liddat.later my fren,kenny's b'dae i also dun tink i can attend,cos of some complicated matters...so sad,i really really wish to attend de leh.then alvin xeno down with chicken pox...
wednesday went to NUH with yvonne n cheryl,go vist my pri/sec sch fren,jessica...she got operation for her stomach tumour...so poor thing~so young then kena this type of thing.when we went to the ICU n see her,can see that her tears is flowing out of her eyes,even thou she was still sleeping as the anesteptic haven worn off yet(she just came out from the operation theater)guess it must be so painful for her that even in her sleep,she's tearing...sad case...
ystd fight with my mum again...she jus cnat stop kpkb lor...i got back all my block test results liao...its OFF.then kena many teachers kpkb also.ya,i agree its my fault that i too playful,b4 block test stil go work...but there are too many concepts that i really dun understand...there are just way too many doubts that i cant clear...it has even gone to the extend that i really really dun like to study,the reason:i dun understand n i dun get thepoint why i jus cant seem to score n do well,or at least pass my tests/exams...etc etc...i dun understand...all these 'dun understands' really make me loathe n hate this stupid sickening life...especially studying...I JUST DUN UNDERSTAND!!!
today actually was planning to go out de,but those complicated matters.oscar has not been messaging me,n i guess i can tell out what's on his mind now le.dunno when my paycheque coming also...wait so long liao.tink they still dun mail me my pay,i'm gonna go chase them le =S
sian1/2
tink mayb i'll jus go haig road market there get some fresh air n thats it...then wil be kunZzz all the way