blogging in frm sch lib now...
i wanna rant~~~~ my pay from the event haven come yet!!!real afraid that they'll nt pay me lor.wait awhile longer see how bah...really hope can faster come lor,if nt i gt no money to eat leh...
anyway,later gotta go geo room to see teacher.dunno for wad reason also.heard its about the time table thingy.seriouslyi tink that no matter how we try to change it,its stil after all the same.no point shifting up a period and make me go home at 4.15pm.does this make much differnce?to me,the answer is a NO...thers's no difference at all.going home at 4.15 means that i'll spend more time laze ard.i cant do much with the short time span from 5pm(the time tt i reach home) to 6.15pm(dinner time)...its too short for me to study,i cant concentrate for sure.too long to sleep,the only thing i could tink of is go shit...stoopid rite???
anyway,i got back afew of my block test results today,as expected...i flunk out.i dunno why,but i feel that i began to loathe econs lesson alot,i really really mean ALOT!!!wy?i dunno the reson either.perhaps its the teacher?or because i simply dun understand whats going on in lectures n tutorials?i seriously dunno why...n ms poh actually came to ask me on my 'future' thingy on friday after sch end.bla bla bla...you know what,tis is the last thing i want to hear frm her,not jus her,but every1 else.except a few of my close frens,yes,they are the only ones who can n are allowed to ask me these stuff.
then my fren called me,yeah...and i knew about the truth of the whole thing.well,i could us say tt i was terribly hurt by the whole incident.n i seriously think that what that 'upstairs character' did only make me close up myself to everybody...ok,in the past,i'll have no qualms on confiding my stuff into her,only infront of her and our group of pple.i'll really dare to act out who i am.within the group,there were no fake mask n costumes.its just different from what outsiders think that we are.anyway,back to main topic on what happened,my fren n i we talked...i really dunno what am i suposed to do now.the only opinion i wanna give is that.the 'upstairs character' is a real BITCH!!!there's no more trust within us...can you get it?im not sying that these are my personal matters and that you guys should just stay out of.but u came to my hse and you saw,how my privacy was like intruigde my her.
what the 'upstairs character' always like to do;act pity in front of the outsiders.act as thou she's at her wits end of controlling her 'diamond'.i dun dun no...n i'm nt in the very much interest of knowing what is she after.n she always say that she does not want this,does not want that...on n on n on...
seriously..i'm sick n tired of this sickening life...i'm serious.this is the most fucked up thing that i've heard ovee the week.can you imagin,1hr b4 i met her,some teacher was preaching to mie on some future stuff,n tt faggot make me waste like a pack of tissue...n next comes the'upstairs character'makin noise,n using a dirty trick to try n know my stuff.i've no more comments on all these events le.i'm simply sick n tired of all these fucking issues.
break end le,gotta go geo room liao~cant just every one be contented with the current time table?you see,last time, monday dun have the fucking econs de...but now,monday got econs lor...tutorial somemore...haix...
i really miss some1..someone~hope he'll find me soon bah...zhen de really very very miss him <3
