mee sua is yummy,bought it on the way home after meetin my fren at bedok...the bak kwa store nxt to it has a long snaking queue...CNY mah~
today's the last full school day we have b4 CNY..after CNY,full length marathon,no more dilly dallys.say gd bye to lotsa stuff liao...
MUST CONTROL MY FEELINGS AND INSTILL MORE SELF DISPCIPLINE is still
important...PLAYING OF FIRE NO MORE!!!
am i very fierce?they said that i was rude and impolite to mr chrissy chen today.was i?i dunno,i always talk liddat wad.i very firce meh?last time my fren also say i v fierce,then stil gt pple accuse me of slapping her,then gt pple call me all sorts of weird stuff.dunno la,but whateva it is.i hope that i dint make mr chen angry la,cos i really dint mean to be rude or wad la...yes,so i shall make an apology in my blog now...
and i will go and complete all my geo tuitorials that i all have,so next time geo rocker calls me,i'll nt be shocked n dunno wad to say.need to concentrate more on my subjects...
oh ya,grandpa n grandma came over for CNY.yeap,i'm soooooooo fuckin happie rite.ya,like real...happy cos of $$$,not happy,cos i'm restricted now...24hr watchful eyes on me.dman sian can,i cant sneak in and out lor..actually tot CNY can have a peaceful time,now also dunno wad liao.the only thing that can cheer me up is all those new clothes+ang pows.hope that tis yr can get more ang-pows with more cash inside =) hehehehehex
another few more day new year liao,stil gt lotsa uncompleteed work,and frannie's damn tired le.i cant stop dozing off,during GP,econs n all other lessons...i've already reached the stage that you are so tired,that you can sleep,and write at the sam etime.but its frannie's style calligraphy la<--tink anting saww it before...tink my reputation in school is gonna become sleeping queen lor.sigh...
tink i online until latest 12.15 will go slp le.tonite must sleep.the GP essay n AQ i'll tink of ways tml.i'll rather be late for school then to go schooland doze of in class,its jus wrong la.
n for CNY celebration in sch,they say they gonna gt a lion dance troupe to perform for us.OMGX..how worse can it get,hope dun get some ah beng that come to MJC lor,its fucking stupid la.waste $$$ get ah beng come entertain us for CNY.might as well spend it on buying us nicer smelling n more moisturzing soap for the girls toilet or provide us with full length mirrors la...wad stupid lion dance show,nv heard such lame arrangements b4...make me feel like pon sch lor...slp at home n nua,rejuvenate myself in teh air-conditioned room :x
gonna slp le.
nitex nites
went out last wkend,and i finally bought my shoes for chinese new year.love them,silver flats again.i'm simply addcited to such shiny shoes la.still feeling quite happy,thou i missed a pair of black sequined one,cos they were outta stock.
then proceeded onto bugis village,then got myslef a rather nice top.mitsubitshi racing team jacket.mummy doesnt like the idea of me wearing a huge marlboro logo at the back,but heck la...who cares,not as if i smoke them...
tink i'm getting anting's eat-non-stop disease...seriously,during lunch break,my plate looks more kong-bu then her plate of anting combo meal...anting combo meal=spahgetti+one pieace of fish =X kekekeexx....think i'm gonna invent my own combo meal also,half chicken+half fish+quarter spahgetti +cabbage from chinese rice=X ~OMGX~
frannie is going nuts again...
something good to share,i was enlighten today!!Finally i got enlightend...woken up from my dreamy fantasy land.yes,from now on,i'll keep all the lighters and matchsticks.play with so much fire,one day will surly kena burnt one.Later really kena burnt,the person who suffer the most,is just ourselves...
like wad my fren told me many many times b4,and parents from young also always tell us this thing'Dun play with fire,later you kena burnt'
this is not jus simply they dun wan you to waste the lighter gas or the matches.there is actually a moral to the story...when we are young,our parents dun wan us to play with fire,for fear that we would burnt down the house or injure ourselves...when we grow older and mature,playing with fire means taking unnecessary risk that would put oursleves into dangerous and vulnerable positions,which would in turn endanger our own well beings.we hurt ourselves,and when everything is over,we would then think,if i had not started all these rubbish,i would not have ended up in such a messy state rite?
conclusion:PLAY FIRE NO MORE...
MUST MUST MUST INSTILL SELF DISCIPLINE & CONTROL MY OWN FEELINGS...
cannot play with fire le,if really kena then will really regret for rest of my life
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sat n ystd all go town shop shop shop n shop for CNY...sat go bugis with mummy for her dried food stuff,damn crowded...heeheee,got this guy very very yandao one,at the shop we bought alot of things lor.cos he's simply too yandao liao..omg,i'm starting 2 sound hua-chi,ah nvm...then next go eat my fave fish soup then rush home.cos new teacher coming to teach my AO maths,my fucking stupid ex-tutor ran away lor...wtf la,now then come tell me dun wan to teach liao.so no choice,mummy went to find another tutor for me.haix,jus make do la,although i find the previous tutors were better then her.but what can i do,now nobody wan to teach me.my reputation that bad meh?just hope that my maths can do well,get A,then all my other subjects also do well lor...if not how to go SMU/NTU/NUS???
then sunday was CNY clothes shoping day,wah,end up now all my new year clothes get from e-base.my friend say i can become their spokesperson liao.ya lor,think after A lvls i just go there find a job,then can everyday wear their clothes liao lor...=.=
but sad to say,i haven find my new shoes yet,stil thinking shld i buy a pair of pure silver shoes or settle for a golden one.each has their own speciality...shall see how.then 5+ liddat went down to bedok meet my friend,pass him half of his b'dae present...haiyo,then now the other half of the b'dae present stil stuck at my hse here.dunno when then can give him...see he msg me/msn bah,shall kip it for the time being first lor....
ystd last min go rush,first time dance on platform.my dancing is getting more n more lan...sigh..before that ate dinner with fren.somethings,i manage to think thru but there are stil numerous doubt and tots in my mind.n also pple frm OGk,some of them did gave sensible suggestions,thou some of them were really harsh...its time that i shall wake up form my fantaay n dreamx...
later wil be meeting alvin for queensway trip,dunno wad to get also.nt really in the mood to do shopping...
today's irvin's b'dae,wish him HAPPY BIRTHDAY and be more and more yandao...
i've gotta finish off my 3 articles later...Mr chen is our new CT.good and bad.Mr chen is a good teacher.
somethings that had happen has made me feel the greyest pt in my life.i've nv ever felt such misery in my entire life b4.i know i cant blame anyone but myself for all this misery...but i sometimes,i really wish that there's someone that can listen out to me.i tot i could get over it in 1 day's time,like the previous club momo incident.but i realised that this time,i could not.why?the previous time,there was no feelings involved...but this time,i can really really feel he pinch in my heart.sometimes,i wish i could jus die off so that i could be spared from all this misery.i dun wan to live everyday in this miserable state.Initially,i knew that this day wld come,but i dint expect that i would be hit so hard that leave me in such a bad state.neither did i expect that the blow wld be that great to me.I thought that i could jus shrug it off like the previous time...but for the time being,i jus pray hard that nothing wld happen.
I wish that i could bury myslef in the books and forget about this entire nightmare totally,but i realised that you,the monster in my nightmare jus refuse to let go of my mind,you jus seem to be stuck in my soul,and i seriously dunno how to shake you off...thx for screwing my life up...
like one of my friends said,why wld i nid frens like you?true,but sometimes,mayb its us my 'cannot bear to' disease starting to attack me again...i dunno why i did those stupid things,making myself like a slut,totally degraded myself...
I'm jus a big big failure,almost in everything i do.i do not succeed.i fail to judge who is good and bad,i fail to like the correct person.ended being cheated,mentally,physically and emotionally hurt...it really really hurt me so much that i think dying off might be a better option...it'll spare me all the agony, and heartache...
when then can i find someone who really love and cherish me?
++waiting to be loved++
the time now is 12.29,some pple like to jus say hello their contacts in msn n then disappear...haix,if you dun appear even i finish this entry then i dun wanna wait liao la.well,tml will be starting school le...fantasy is all over,tis afternoon msn with fren,everyone have a ultimate goal in their mind n heart...but wad do i have?yes,i've tt dream,but am i working towards it?i shld really stop all my rubbish immediately.this year cannot play liao...no more chionging for me...pls do not ask me to go chiong with you,for i'm old already.all those charwas,drinks and XXXXXX will kill my brain cells.i'll still join u guys for chionging after my exams ok?if we are stil around...
well,i did went for a countdown celebration at rush,prob my first...n last chiong session at rush?yes,i'm old already,really cannot tahan liao.i dun even wanna charwa as much as b4 liao.mayb i'm starting 2 realise de harmful effects bah~
ystd,was one of the biggest grp outing,we even took grp foto outside,hu knows what might happen to us in the future?
here's our grp foto...
grp photo...
i look fat in the photo=(... ok,i shall be lame n list out everyone's name...
(first row,from left)xiao alvin,me,irvin(second row,from left)louis,alvin xeno,pearlyn,jennifer,elaine,kenneth...the one at the back is jeff...
photo taken outside Club Rush by Rush towkay,kenny on 31/12/2005,nite time.
tts all for today's entry...tml start school liao...
MUST PIA N CHIONG SCHOOL FOR ANOTHER 11MONTHS!!!
