i dunno shld i blog or not...these feel days getting more and more worried.in the first place,i shld not have tried to save that miserable $8...u see,its not like i cannot afford it or wad.now i must spend more $$.sigh,tell me what to so?
If the misfortune really befall,i'm gonna have a hard time,first,if i really tell out the truth,she(a gd+close fren of mine)might nt be able to forgive me for what i did,she'll definetly be angry with me n flare up...next,i'll face a series of greater problems.family problems+social problems.
third choice is re-surfacing.because first choice,i dun have enough$$,unless i borrow from loan shark or miracle happen ah?``stop dreaming liao``$$ is not gonna drop from the sky and solve your problem...
2nd choice,lagi worse lah,i'll need to suffer for the rest of my life.
so third choice,is the best 1.but i scared pain,scared this n that...what if one try not enought to kill,left half a life is not a good thing.the results of left half a life not totally gone..is DISASTROUS!!!TOTAL TERRORIST RESULTS!!!
somemore,X'mas,NYE,CNY festive seasons,alot of pple know liao,sure words will spread ard.i'll nt be surprised to know that half of sg knows what happen...its the inevitable that i've to hurt some people in this entire incident,esp my parents+family.perhaps in my next life,i'll repay you all back...do not grieve or feel too sad for whateva that has happen,pls understand that,to me,leaving will make me feel better.i admit that after one has climb to higher grounds,falling down is most fatal to he/she.pple alwaes say,nevermind,fall down liao,jus pick your self up,can already...but secreatly,behind,they'll say this'so n so ah,aiyo,you know what she did or not,this type of pple ah,next time surely not good de.bla bla bla'
its same like last time my fren's blog said this,parents alwaes say,"nvm,you tell daddy/mummy what wrong you did,tell us the truth,confess to us,we will not scold you."so you tell them the truth...then they SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMM n YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLl at you...mummy yells"WHY DID YOU DO THIS???HUUUUUUUUUUUUH????????I DINT EXPEXT THAT I"VE SUCH A DAUGHTER!!!"mummy tells daddy,"YOU SEE WAD YOUR DARLING DAUGHTER HAS DONE?!!!" so i've learnt that,jus tel them whateva they want to hear,dun tell the wahteva truth thingy,u dun wan them to gt angry rite,n u dun wan to gt scolded as well rite?so tell them whateva they want to hear,even if you have to lie..its a white lie ok?
ya,anyway,i jus pray hard on everything...i promise that if really nothing happen,the misfortune DUN befall onto me,i'll really stop al those rubbish once and for all...i really really promise.
The fact n truth is that,i really dun wan to take the 3rd choice...
i dun wan to even have the chance to choose choices
really xin-fan and i dunno how liao,no amount of charwaz can relieve my current stress.I swear that.next time.i'll 1000% not give in anymore,no matter what happpen...spare me so much trouble.irresponsible behaviour as well.dun intend to do up much of my work,since its 3rd choice,why shld i still try so hard,mayb afterall,i'll nt be around liao...it might be alot of last XXXXXX whateva...
