jus came out from town+bedok....shag...
somemore i sick lor,no,its ill..sick is a mental condition.ya,went out with yvonne to town,then slack slack,next time no more chance.i'm gonna MIA for afew days.due to some circumstances.
now tink i gt fever and sorethroat,rather jus high fever,headache,no sore throat...i wan 2 talk to some1 la,then they all nt online...-sigh-
will talk another day bah~i need to clear out some distracting stuff from my life.
my fren sae its impossible to quite chionging de...who sae so?still gt pple say i bu-ke-neng go chiong de...so how?i'll prove to u all tt i can i can can can!!!
saw s0m3one damn cu+3 today...
wi11 nt say who's that..but its some1 like xin-shang-ren
hope he dosent knows tis site n read my blog =)
off too sleep
~sweet secreats~
must listen to alvin's advice...
MUST MUST MUST CONTROL MY OWN FEELINGS...
cannot play with fire le,if really kana then will regret for rest of my life
my other idea....er,going body shop buy something la....going later lor.
but what alvin say very true lor,worth meh?sometime i tink i dun mind actually,but worth or nt?
-sigh-
must really wake up le lor.
only one thing:
MUST CONTROL MYSELF!!!
ystd,went rush again,met melvin b4 rushing,go bugis there he bought present for his fren.then muee having offer for this angel,damn cheap.last time vey ex de,mayb tml or tues i'm going there,maybe go buy for x'mas....
then went of to meet the gang of them at coffeeshop,everyone late lor,then nic took same bus as me to MS there,n i dint know at all..blur queen me =.=
RUSH FUN FUN FUN!!!
first time i go rush,they so pack sia...pack until at one point,the area we sitting,all full of people,almost no place to dance even.
then i see dance floor.kaox~even more pack.so hot lor...then dunno y ystd gt on-light for like quite some time liddat.5-10mins liddat?think i now very used to no on-lights liao.dunno next time stil gt chance go sparks,they on-light for 1&1/2 hr,i confirm =.= mauhahahahahaha,but on 2nd tots,tink wldnt be going there again also la
totally enjoyed myself but seh lor...
ok,i admit i abit high la...but overall rush still very fun,but songs like abit sian sian liddat.saw all the regulars lor.the guys wah~so hiong lor,buy sooo much drinks... =.=
later wanna go parkway buy some stuff...
come come come...lai lai lai
guess where is this photo taken at...
guess correctly got prize one...
tag ur answers at the tag board or msg me on msn,hp whateva...
every1 is welcome to join in this guess-where-is-the-photo-taken-at-competion =)
somemore pics taken last time,earlier part of tis year.
went to bugis with yanling&cheryl
this one is taken at geylang...xuewen and weining
dunno what they doing also sia
me...
slowly my brothers(frenz) left me one by one...
stay away from drugs
wei she me ni na me ben...
wei she me ni yao jing qu???
will post up more when i come back from rush..
today mummy working morning..good and bad.
good thing is that i can sleep until very late then wake up,sleep until very shiok lor.soo long nv wake up at 11am liao.
bad thing i that she come home sure nag at me when i wanna go out de lor.i was hoping that she today workin nite so that i can go out at ease and wear whateva clothes i like.if nt hor,i everytime must sneak out,if nt she sure ask me wear jacket,very mafan leh.bring jacket so big out...then come home liao,sure stink like nobody's business one lor.somemore then jacket cannot everytime use the strong detergent to wash de,machiam spoil how?u pay mie back one new one ah``actualli i dun mind leh =X but now very diff to fing such nice one liao lor.
later gonna rush with friends again.dunno wad to wear,somemore i must help fren do fliming.then he ask mie wear the same outfit again cos tt one is more safe.i feel like wearing my yellow+green de singlet but then hor.i scared very dangerous lor.she also warn mie the other time b4,cos that one i walk pass motor shop he ah beng also stare at mie liao.i wear down help her do filming,dunno what will happen lor.
better dun take such risk.
somemore ah gui say i lousy fighter...dunno how to fight de.ya lor,i anyhow fight one lah.
mummy coming back soon.
jus so in love with playboii now >.< haiyo
hope will get over it soon...
if nt i stil liddat lala land mood,how to complete hw?
chaox
~playboii playboii playboii~
playboii playboii playboii
missing messages from someone
its just different receving messages from some1 you like and from other people.
i know its jus a dream...
but the only thing that i can sae is
*read the words below*
simply cute+sweet
thought that today want to guai guai stay at home de.
then last min decided to go out.meet fren,then slack out...
dunno how to blog lerr...
~sweet secrets~
so cute,so sweet,so loving,so loving
~grinx grinx~
sweet secrets
bored....
waiting for my manicure to dry...
cant do much especially when ur fingers cant move too much.
so went to try out quiz again
jus for fun lor
How Well Do You Understand Men?
| You Are a Good Student of Men |
You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking
But you're not dead on 100% of the time
Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong! |
How sexy Is your vIb3?
| Your Vibe Is Somewhat Sexy |
On a good day, you're the sexiest woman in the world
But on a bad day, you can't help but feel a little average
Try to remember the times you've felt the sexiest...
And keep that attitude even on the worst of days |
what kind of bikini are you?
| You Are a Halter Bikini |
You're an athletic girl with a hot athletic bod to match.
And you've got a great tan, probably from all those beach volleyball games! |
dint expect tis hor,me tann huh?
someone pls tell mie i'm tann... :)
| Men See You As Desirable |
Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily |
really mah?
how come i alwaes end up so stress?
saw this at a friend's blog...
nth to do so decided to try them all out
this does brings back love calculator tt we played during sec1,sec2 tt time
go try out our names with the cute upper sec flirty ah beng senior...
heez...
you guys might try them out too bah~
rmb tel mi the results also hor
| You are White Chocolate |
You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! |
what do guys like in euu?
| Guys Like That You're Fun |
You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you |
gOOD GIRL?
BAD GIRL?
| You Are a Normal Girl |
You are 40% Good and 60% Bad
Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past.
But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl. |
kissing style....
| You Are a Passionate Kisser |
You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger
Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited
You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat
It's all about where your passion leads you |
WTF hor...dunno lah
you guys go slowly play bah~
i slp slp lerr
back from outside...
today went out with yvonne to bugis,slack around.and we met cheryl wor,think she doing some stuff for cdc bah...she still look the same as last time...so nv see cheryl le worx...
then we went off to bedok there,find yvonne de fren,talk cock at void deck..then go home liao lor...
some bitch hor,only know how to say pple.pls lor,go find a mirror and take a look at yourself...some people jus think that she's so undisgusting,so chiobu,so pretty,so lian,so cute,so sweet,so sexy,attractive,guys all will fall voice,figure so nice,so hardworking,so clever n intelligent,have so many friends that will back you up when u are in trouble for you,whateva shit u talk cock on other people,pple will buy your story and have a oh-so-loving-darling.
then cant you just be contented and stop bitching around.so you think that crying to people about oh-how-pathetic u are pple will buy your story?FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!knnb ccb~dun even know whats your status.see guys only know how to act cute,act sweet voice.you're jus like a prostitue,see every sai also tou huai song bao,cos you jus wan them to spend money and buy things for you.you fucking,cheapo slut!!!
to that whateva simi lanjiao fuckin bitchified cheapo slut,you know who you are...
better know your own status,and fuck off.or you'll be sorry.
you might say that because you were bu-shuang or unhappy with me,so your smelly fuckin mouth went into outta control,then those fuckin shit came out uncontrollably...muahahhaaa,so farnie hor...wad fuckin shit excuse u can tell mie.
i'll jus tell you that i feel damn pissed and irritated by you so i did that to you.
knnb ccb
fucking bitch
so if you still wanna stay around and fuck your oh-so-loving-knn-chao-lan-jiao bastard-boyfriend.
better shut your blardie mouth up
and know what's best for you...
take care~
jus now online talk to roxy,told mie about some foodie blog on FRAN
yup..FRAN..dunno what is it about huh...
go to the link below,its on on the left side where my links are,under wing fook food blog...
go and read it yourself if you want lor,very very funny lor
i was playing frensta and passby this blog got the damn nice version of million tears that i liked very much.hope some1 kind enought to send mie*grinx grinx*
actually sae wanna go sleep,but end up watch tv,do dunno what,another dae wasted away again.-sigh-haven even help mummy hang her laundry yet.then still must complete my work even.now i even have 2nd tots on my third decision which i can carry out if the worst come out...
so tired,headache liao.hope tonite i can sleep in peace...
*pray pray now first*
must really start to study liao.really got alot of work to clear,if not next year i die liao lor.now daddy is trying to fix the aircon.so irriating,want to go sleep liao,ystd i wanted to sleep early de,then fren msg me.
its not that i dun wan call euu or pick up ur call or msg u back,but i really vv tired and sick lor.so pls forgive mie if i make u not happy again can?
some things i really nid a break.dun want to think too much about those rubbish and bother myself.
isnt life so nice when i jus study everyday,5&1/2days a wk,fri after sch go out,or then sat afternoon go out with frens hang ard,enjoy myself with frens...
this is the nice way,at least i tink for now...
will blog again later
ok,i forgot who is it who told me this...
was it my teacher or clubbing fren?i deserve some1 better.
i dunno,i really dunno.mayb i'm nt use to havin some1 to track me whole day long?i prefer to have my own time.mayb the person is not the right one that i really like.cos if its my xing shang ren call/msg me,i feel damn happy de lor.even he attach liao,he ask mie stuff,over msn,sms,call mie,talk to me.i still feel vv happy de leh.
i know for definite that the some1 that if there is someone i really like alot and can make mie do all sorts oof rubbish,for sure i will be good to him.....think over the past few months,my mindset have changed alot.i no longer like that type of people.unless this guy really touch and moved me alot,make me too mesmerized for him.
If you are reading this,yes,XXVXN.
What i really want is someone,who not only cherish me,understand and be zhen xing to me,he mus also can communicate with me and understand what i'm thinking,doing and what i want to do in the future.my hopes,my wishes,my ambitions.even if you dun really support them,but at least understand that thats what i really want.currently those things,are the most important things in my life.regarding why i dun wanna walk with H2 anymore its also due to this reason.
i wanna concentrate on my studies,i'm afraid that it'll affect my studies.because to me right now,its studies in the first place...
i want to succeed in the future and i know that i must really put in 1000% effort for me to succeed.and to succeed in the future,i mus work hard on my studies now.Even if you dun say support me with my this idea,but at least know and can understand what i do everyday.it'll be good enough.
R/S now i might nt have the time,unless you can understand that its not that i dun wanna care for you,go talk to you,accompany you go out,but its because that i really reeally busy and have no time for you.
hope u dun be so sad and pick up the pieces in ur life.dun alwaes dwell on ur past relationship.mayb u wan to be in this current relationship on impulse,i dunno.but i hope that if this thing really cannot work out well.then we also dun waste so much time.later you more sad how?
but i hope that even in the future,even we're not together,can we jus be frens?sorry,even if tis question freak you out alot,i stil mus sae,but if u dun wanna contacct me anymore cos u too sad/scared or wadeva,i also no choice lor.its ur choice also.but i also hope tt tis day will nv come at the same time
you go think over it slowly kk...
in the mean time,you take care and rest well
dun smoke so much k,nt good for health.
remember take care urself at work.
sleep early tooo :)
okay,got correction from von...its GEYLANG ok?
GEYLANG....
ystd,actually wanted to stay at home guai guai one,but last min decided go rush again.cos quite some time haven been there bah.ya,so i went down there lor.As usual,
saw lotsa rush regulars and make new friends too.the guys got drinks bla bla bla.
starting rush like abit sian sian,but after that was quite nice lor.did stupid things again lor.went home by bus,nv drink much,so still feel quite alrite.but on the way home,i was like half asleep due to my 'as normal' headache.-sigh-
some things erm,all i can say bring bad some past good old memories.messages keep on flooding my handphone,was very tired...
ystd,spoke to friend about what i worry on.the last choice is not a choice.i must admmit.its a DECISION.i know that my today gd fren wan 2 talk to me about it also,but i simly feel like avoiding it for the time being.i dun wanna tire myself with such matters.i really hope that i dun nid to take the last choice,cos i still hope that i can be loved and cherished by someone who is really zhen xing to mie.
even if dun have such pple.i work hard on my own also wont die de.by dec,the answer will be out.hope all will be well,this is smth that i really promise and swear...
kena lecture by some friend on some stuff la.
YES,by CNY,i'll really change lar.die also must fulfill what i promised ok.
waitin for fren on msn,so long.
i vv tired liao leh,wait awhile more,he nv 'be-right-back' stil not back,then i offline liao la.
sleep sleep
hmmm,farnie hor...
weining,xuewen and mie :)
weining and xuewen doing funny pose again...
mie+danyuan,he look like ah beng anot?
mr hon,u stil rmb wad u sae?u tink look like meh?
nora,liping and mie
first pic we took,everyone wear until nice nice worx
but why my eyes close??? =X so sad~
nore and mie...
ok,thats all i can upload for now.will upload more soon...
ystd went out with hoe hwee to watch oliver twist,very touchin story.then went back bugis there eat.
some things happen which i got no idea absoulutely what happen?
if its my fault,i agree that i'm the one in the wrong.as a friend only.i'm admit i'm quite inconsiderate to people.if as a more than friend person to you,i'm definetly not tat good.sometimes i also dunno why cant i treat him better,why cant i treat him like i treat my other friends liddat.i nv let him waited more then 5mins longer,i nv asked people to help mie do this do that and stuff.i nv throw any tantrums or give him any attitude b4.
i think the conclusion is that,after all you are not him and that i guess that u cant replace him after all...
i do feel bad at times especially for that XXXXXX particular thing.nvm,forget it.
enough of emo entry liao...
craps
ystd evening was MJ bash,took cab down from bugis,which i after that felt it was a total waste of money,traffic jam all the way,until i want to vomite already.the turnout was less then i expected,could say that it was sort of my expectation,but i expected it to be at least more happening abit.luckily the performance was quite nice+funny.gotta see mr hon on a funny video.then performance by school mates,blah blah blah...
then after then bash ended,ruiqi,xue wen,ying hong,zhong hui,wei ning,an ting ,wu hao and me went off to gelang...yes,GELANG for supper.yummy yummy,ate hor fun at lor9 there.then moved on to the dou jiang,you tiao there for more food.i pig liao lor,eat hor fun then go dou jiang there atill can eat mee sua+you tiao.
i left first then think the rest went off for durian bah~
took alot of pictures,will post them up soon...
dunno today gonna do what leh,later gonna watch all some shows bah,yup,gonna go singpost find mummy.she say wanna treat me eat.think today stay at home,nv go anywhere bah...lazy also
haiyo,gt some relative comin visit me soon lor.then wan to borrow my digital camera.not say i stingy or selfish or what lor.i dun like to lend such things to some pple i not close to.somemore,its i mine leh,i bought it lor,so expensive.if she make spoil how?mummy sure say nvm,then i use spoil 1 ah?xiao lor,dun care,i'm just gonna try to give some shit reason to her.wy alwaes gt relative some big auntie,small cousin wanna come disturb mie?luckily mummy sae only for a few days.nvm,i can ren de lor.
gotta lunch out lerr,will blog again later...
anting aka saliva,adeline pink pink,mie another pink pink de and weining mian bao :)
taken that day when we all go little india,then went to bugis the coffee bean.
wu hao was the photographer for us.
"no matter wat decisions u make, u gotta have make sure tt u gave urself time to weigh the pros and cons of the situation. as pastor mentioned in the sermon, a wrong decision is made when the outcome does not come as expected despite serious consideration has been made... however, a bad decision occurs when u didnt give any considerations b4 making tt decision... and lastly, a good decision is made when u gave serious thought and e outcome is as what u expected"
this is taken from a friend's blog.i dunno what to say.what you pple think?i'm not a christian but i do listen to logical and sensible stuff.
haven been blogging for some time.yesterday finally collected my new ipod.
Whee!!!finally i can listen to songs on those long lonely travelling trips around.i've also decided,if nothing bad*tsk tsk*`happens to me.i'll try my best to work some small job,and try to earn so $$ so i can vist popo and auntie.at least for 1 week.That's the best i can do,cos of school and stuff.thinking of when i shall start my revision.haven really started on them yet.think should be around next week?
Well,later going out with mummy.go down find mummy after her work end,then we going bugis there lor.dunno she gonna return mie the money yesterday i bought the sushi or not.sushi was so delicious.now i'm quite addicted to the marugo sushi.so delicious!!!
hmmm...quite proud of myself.did this by myself.okay la.i took some1's blogskin n then edit it lor.was thinking whether this thing nicer on black(which is this current one larr)or will it turn out nicer on a yellow mickey mouse monograme background?hmmm,dunno leh.mayb after some time i c this until sian liao then change lor...still scouting around fer a nice one.
so people,do rmb to leave ur comments generously about this blog.the tag board is below...must tag tag hor,it haven been moving fer quite sometime liao...
Finally i understood the chinese proverb meaning of yi(1)shi(1)zhu(2)cheng(2)qian(1)gu(3)hen(4),hui(2)tou(2)yi(3)shi(4)bai(2)nian(2)sheng(1)
can understand or nt?if not msg m eon msn,i tell xlain to u slowly.sometimes,must really watch what you do.out of the sudden,have lotsa flash backs.
dunno why whenever i headache will get all sorts of 'history' flashbacks. KNN FUCKER
SON OF A BITCH
BASTARD
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
KNNB CCB FUCKER ASSHOLE
its not what i want.but i also try to tell myself that things cannot be change already rite..jus wait and see lorr.
The SUCIDAL thoughts seems to re-surface in my mind again.i still remeber what i wrote last time,and i realised how immature i was,may its through incidents,wrong doings that we discover our mistakes adn improve ourselves constantly.
i can only sae from 4am+ until 6am+ until fren msg me,keep on msging,then i keep on trying to explain.finally give up....i keep on having this horrible headache,and terrible flash back.i wish they could get out of my mind.dunno tonite still can sleep or nt.haven slept well since then.i really dunno wad to do.only can pray in the mean time.from tml onwards will start my intensive programme.
whateva the outcome will be,i still wanna live on normally,happily for the time being.yvonne ask me some stuf today.i jus tell her that sometimes i have to be selfish and let the innocent party suffer.what yvonne and ivan say i find its very true...
but partially also my fault also.i admmit.only can blame on my naive and immature mindset.if hoe hwee finds out,dunno what will he think.mayb this mayb that...
i know that this is unfair to that innocent party(if there is any,but i need to make a decison that will affect my life.i hope tt i will nid nt worry on such problems.i feel that this is even worse then the previous wait on results.
waiting on for long painful 14+ days...
i was hoping that listening to some music can help.but now my ipod also gone.no music...
to pple who knows:telling me not to keep on think about it,or dun think about it at all.its impossible fer me to do that.can you like put urself into my shoes and think if you were me.how would you feel if you were me?
ystd was went wu hao's hse play mahjong.or i shall say i watch them play mahjong.then at nite go join fren at club momo there,thurs very very dead lor.actually want to go rush de.but then end up nv go...
momo damn sian,cos nobody.i suaku first time go there lorr...
then my fren decided that momo too sian liao.so finish off the drink then went to his hse lorr.then stay there until 3am+ liddat...then go home liao...
posted up a song that i liked quite alot.
now i'm ipod-less cos sent it for repair.then they gonna change a new 1 fer me.happy lorr,cos gt new ipod mah,my old one,so dirty n dented somemore.think get new ipod liao will go buy the casing.must really take good care of it lerr.no songs to listen.then later going fren's hse play mahjong.then at nite pple jio me go out leh.i like gt time-gap liddat lorr...
ystd,desmond suddenly called me at 1+am liddat.then we talk talk talk until like 2+ liddat.hiaz,cannot slp again,wad to do?then he asked me about hoe hwee the stuff lor.sometimes i also dunno how to sae leh,then i jus say cos me wans to study first.studies is placed on my first priority,getting into relationships,i'm no longer interested in such stuff for now.
yes,if the some1 knows how tired,busy,flustered,fustrated,stressed up and dissapointed i feel at times,and wunt give me tt type of attitude.i'l be more than happy.if he refuse to hellp me get the toys,or cannot gt fer me.nvm,you tell me earlier can,i can buy them myself...
then desmond ask me,y in the first place i mus be together with him.
my answer:i dunno leh
question(des):you like him?
my answer:-silence-i dunno leh
question:then you now still wit him ah?
my answer:i also dunno leh...
-bish bish-
yan tell me b4 that this type of pple is too caring,y u dun like.its just like why guys dun like to go shopping with girls also...too caring until like dunno wad liddat.then everything also ``you say lor``,``anything lorr``...very no own thinking
the more i read,the worse i feel...a zhang bei told me before.if it had never even started,then why should you even go ponder and dwell on it?well,i think maybe its sometimes i think too much.
完了吧 仍能撐起來
前進便讓自尊心放開
告別從前總是不易 然而假如不只你在
你可願仍逗留在這愛海
dunno those stuff i type in can see or not...
u say that if i'm single now,the status will not last fer too long.actually,i'm quite happy how me and hoe hwee are now...yeap,its grey tts all i can describe.but sometimes when pple ask mie we together or not.i'll jus stun there,dunno wad to say.sometimes think back,he so good,then i treat him so bad.last time say ask him watch movie,end up we go shopping,then stay at the book shop for 1hr liddat,then he sian sian.cannot blame him also.last week he send mie down to MS,then reach MS liao,i immediately pang seh him,walk off on my own,nv even say bye to him.even scream at him when he dun wan 2 pass me my charwas...how can i gt???
but to some pple,who doesnt even give a fucking shit care about me.i can jus do whateva he wishes.even thou he's attach...so wad,to me its no big deal.
but now the most important thing to me,its only studies stuides and more studies.then can go university in singapore,then graduate and then can find good job in the future and earn alot alot of money.thats my first priority in life,at least fer now...
hmmm,today went little india with friends...blur me last nite gave the wrong timing to danyuan,then he was there like so early.paiseh,myy fault,then have to treat him drink.ya,the earliest who reach there was shuning,danyuan and wu hao.then we walk out go find them..xuewen,weining and ade were the shopping queens lor.
i dint buy anything,cos nt really into such stuff...then anting came to join us.
then we walked to bugis there eat at sakae there.danyuan,weining and anting eat the buffet,then xue wen,adeline,shuning,wuhao we all eat the ala carte.ordered some sushi thingy...quite nice,eat until quite full...then we statrted to crap rubbish...blah blah blah....
walked walked ard bugis there,then went to topshop.then tried on tis skirt tt i liked alot..but its really too short-sigh-
i first time complain skirt short lorr...ya,then we went to coffe bean la-kopi...the tiramisu nt nice at all lor...taste like shit leh..waste my $4.90.shouldnt have ordered it at all.slack and talk cock there until 8+,then went home.
tml tink gonna go down to wheelock place there repair my ipod...hope stil covered in warrenty...vv tired liao..time for bed...
I was just wondering after mummy left for work.whether what had happened today are really just a coincidence,or its just other stuff.Sat i promised her to go home earlier.but i went home later instead.cos she sae she wanna bring me go out today,she having leave.However,sat i still went out.cos i know she will still bring me out after all.
I understand that all parents still love their own kids no matter wad.so i sunday skipped my fren's BBQ,guai guai stay at home and be a good kid.hoping that mummy will stil bring me out today.but afternoon.jus as i was about to go change,get ready to go out with mummy that time.the dreadful call came.lao auntie say need her to work.so no choice,mummy went work.and there goes my precious time that we're suppose to have together.-sigh-
mayb this is called 'ming zhong zhu ding'pre-arranged in life.such that that sat i went out.well,u said wad the other day,i dun wish to bring up again liao.jus sometimes abit dissapointed.its jus like how mummy's dissappointed with me going home solate nad gettin into so much trouble and stuff.yes,i know that children and parents cannot be compared.tts why i went to buy the manhatten call girl book and read,but ended up losing it b4 i could even start on it...
before mummy left for work,she sae mayb she'll be taking leave tml cos she supposed to take leave today.i soo happy,cos i tot finally we can go out liao or at least i cook smth nice/jus go stroll with her after dinner.-sigh-suan le,tml i'm going lil india with xue wen n peeps.A301 outing.dunno la...see my mood tml howbah~
wondering wads wrong with the dragostea din tei song.i know its a nice song larr,i hear 1 time kena stuck in my head in head liao...
chicken little previewchicken little's cute thou---> today in sch,after OP,ruiqi,gek and haris they all cant stop singing it la...
we all go watch chicken little leh...sounds VVVVVVVVVVVVVV fun to me now...
anyway,i wanna watch chicken little any1 wanna watch also?pls leh...dun feel like watching it alone with my fich and chips leh,later i choke on it how?
another post before i go sleep.
actually i wanted to watch the show b4 i go sleep de.cos that show now channel U nv show anymore liao.but its like 12midnite lorr.u tell me how?later i cannot sleep again.woke up the latest today.beat my last time record liao.next time i must set alarm make myself wake up at 10am if mummy workin afternoon.must see her b4 she go work,no matter how tired also must make the effort to wake up.
ok,back to the reflections...
ya,dunno y today suddenly so much people come ask me i ok or nt.because i broke down the other day at cine,i cried after meet the parent's session,or because of last nite at MS?sometimes,things over liao,unless i bring them up myself,sometimes i dun really wan people to keep on bringing them up <--esp.some1 hu stil scolds me over my b'dae tt day's stuff,which was like how many donkey months back...
sometimes,i hope that why cant i be like last time when i can hold back everything,why now i become liddat?
ystd actually wan watch movie with hoe hwee,but i jus watch finish 1 show with my frens...the cinema soo freezing for wad?now tink wait for harry potter come out then go watch,feel like watchin HK movie also leh,but the dubbings sure spoil the whole show de.sometimes hor,i wondering if the zorro VCD i have at home is about wad 1,then the one at cinema showing now is about wad 1?related or nt,dun wan later i kuku go watch then dunno wad is it about.my zorro at home is like dunnohow many donkey years ago de.my mum sae she watched it when she was a kid... OMGX
tink i wan 2 reserve myself for harry potter bah~ take break first...then find some1 watch with me when it come out,tink comin out on 16/17nov....if nt then i go buy the VCD frm roadside then ta-bao fish and chips...go home eat and watch the movie at the same time,best thing parents nt at home,can on until super loud. ...so long nv do this liao...that old virgin wan 2 complain jiu complain la.u tell me who make more noise,u watch your angmoh opera which sound like some &*%!$ #@$%*!& liddat,then u play mahjong even make more noise.i only sometimes on my techno loud only hor.my very loud that i on is the canto songs.the only time i blasted my techno is on the occasion that most of the people stayin here all go fer the committe meetin tt time.then i gt blast hor.u every fri also listen to tt horrible opera.ya lor,wad else can u do....dun wish to elaborate liao...
btw,does any1 have the HK movie young & dangerous(gu huo zai) movie the VCD?all the parts,partI,part II,part III,part IV,blah blah blah,heard gt 7 parts altogether,then now still making somemore huh...can lend me ah nt,i will return u all de lah,dun worry...if nt can some1 hellp me gt the partIII?cos its M18 la,my face nt say tt old ma,so will kena check IC de.but i really wan 2 watch leh...then eat my fish and chips at the same time.sometimes,being alone also quite nice leh,come to tink of it.
you guys can check this movie out if u nv watch B4,super nice,1 of my faves.but everytime watch must make sure at home nobody.cos alot of vuglarites+violent+sexually explicit scenes.so if u those type of meow meow meow type hor,tink better dun watch and frighten urself...
bah~
i bought a story book,and i lost it even before reaching home.
xiao liao.story book also can lost nowadays.finally gt my kitties.now only gt my melody,hope can go elias mall/bugis arcade there gt the rest of them.any1 will do.
wasnt really happy of everthing in my life.
why did things alwaes turn out liddat.when i can make it to a good school,u claim that the school is not good enought.when i make it to a bad place,u told mie was ok,u dun mind.but deep down,u also not happy,thats why tt time during supervision u told me TK is a lousy school,go there and learn all the rubbish stuff only.when i can get advance to J2,u are not happy,but if compared to the others who cannot even qualify for advancement,u tell ie its other peoples problem.then why must u take the smart girl who lives above me everytime and compare me with her?why must you always tell me that the indian family who lives next door is how and how?u tell me cannot compare urslef to other people.then u still compare me with them.some times i dun really want to listen soo much,to mie,i dun tink there is a point in taking everything to heart and make myself suffer so much,too much indeed.
for the past 17+ years,i really really really had enough.when people ask about my family,i dunno how to answer them.i dunno wahy i have this 'phobia'i will only tell people whom i feel like telling.however,the ironic part is that these people may be some1 that u all deem that i shld'nt let them know,its also none of their business that they know it or not.everytime i come home from outside,u always like to ask mie about this and that.whats the fucking problem with this?so wad u all sae that i bought my results?its jus a method.
I must fight for myslef,i cannot let external things control me.mayb i will stil rely on somethings for some time.ya,i will need time to tink over alot of things.i might need to take alot of time to tink and sort out stuff.its mayb jus like typical of me,i cannot let go of alot of things.thats why i'm constantly worrying about everything.whenver results turn out good,i'l worry about whether did it turn out good enough,up to standard or not.then wad is the next thing that i should do?some times,tinking too much is just like a fatal injury to me.just too affected.over how many times i told myslef that i should'nt think too much.
fuck la...
my ipod this time really died on mie liao lorr.
aiyoh,now must really bring down to the ipod centre soon.i'm noe deprived of my music.*sad sad*
now looking at the other ipods.now ipod mini already no longer on sale liao.think if really my current one CMI,then mayb think of getting a new MP3 first lo,then gt $$ liao go get ipod photo.30GB leh,cost like $548..was thinking of ipod nano actually,but heard that the screen very easily scracth...see first how bah~
best is my current one can repair.all the new ipods only come in black n white leh,no pink...*hmph*
still love my pink ipod mini to bits :)
